sound of silence.

I’m off my antidepressants hopefully she stays out of my head

It’s been a while since writing here. I haven’t talked to her in nearly a year now. I still care about her but it is an unhealthy infatuation which causes even my best days to fall to pieces. as this summer progresses I’ve been hanging out with a long time friend and old feelings for her have also resurfaced. I don’t know if she would be willing to go on a date with me but I plan to ask her for one real date hopefully next weekend. I hope she says yes. :)

You tried talking to me a few days ago. less than a semester ago you said you didn’t want to be friends anymore and now you are trying to talk again. I can’t do this this I don’t want in my life anymore you cause more pain than you are worth. I’ve been depressed since you decided to talk to me. I’ve gone through old prom pictures to remember how beautiful you used to be. in every picture I had a look of pure bliss on my face in every one. I’m listening to emo shitty music and really hating life. I want the old you before you became someone to please every one else. I hate you, I hate me.

you hurt me to the point where my world came crashing down. I know I should be a better person and try to make amends but I just can’t I loved you with all my heart and you are gone forever. I wish I could go back in time.